Friday, February 11, 2005
ok pple.. prepare urself cos dis entry is gonna b more personalized n more vulgarities..
feeling damn fucked up rite now.. at wad? God noes.. feeling so crappy n shit.. im feeling fucking insecure? i dunno.. mayb insecure's nt the werd.. i dunno.. feeling sucky to my existence.. Sori God for me saying dis.. bt i feel so damn disgusting to even as forgifness frem u.. i feel so ashamed to face u wen i die.. i feel so dirty nfilthy tat im nt worth ur protection.. pls forgif me...
fuck lar.. after 1 thing now another.. first come back frem obs lloking lyk sumone kene chicken pox n its nt fucking going awae ar! fuck sia.. still itching lyk a crazy person! n nw my ankle juz wont baik ar.. freaking hurting again.. argh! i wan to play hockey n do tarian in a good condition! fish ar.. hw long is my ankle gonna b sore sia! argghhh!!!!
wads my worth in the eyes of my frens? i dunno lar..
here's my confession.. im sori my frens tat mayb u guys may feel tat u guys share wif me ur weries,ur anger n all bt as for me i keep it in.. its nt tat i don wan to tell.. reli.. nt tat i dont trust u guys.. i trust u guys.. bt i guess im the type tat keep most of it inside until i rlei cannot i'll burst ar.. bt nt tat much aniwae.. i wish i was more open abt wadeva problems im facing n tok bt it.. bt seriously its hard for me ar.. dont trouble urself abt me cos im fine even if troubles come my wae.. as much as u mite sae im a coward, sumtimes i do choose to run awae frem it cos its sickening wen u haf so many things in ur head n things juz arent getting better.. so chilling is releasing everythin.. bt in a bad wae cos i guess i run frem it.. bt im elarning to address it.. sum matters tat is.. bt sum things juz remain tt wae.. no one can change tat.. i think.. i hope.. wadeva it is, im hapie as i m.. u guys make me smile =) sayang, u make me smile the widest =)
ok gonna stop here.. for those hu seems blur, well fine.. hahaha.. can b a s blur as me.. lyk huda sae i pass off bad vibes! hahaha.. queen of tat! hehe..
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